Saturday, January 30, 2010
I am a social butterfly most of the time. I never meet a stranger, I have great friends and family but sometimes I feel very alone. I guess I have always had this side to me that is irrationally sad at low moments in my life but I'm noticing more lately. My friend I work with said she thought we were all great moms and she was a bad one, she said she thought she was the only one depressed. Ha Ha. We all have those moments don't we? I worry about Colman's future and his daily injections I'm to give him. I think I'm not doing a good job raising my boys but they are sweet, polite adorable kids...most of the time. My point is I miss my best friend Lucy, the one I told every single detail of my life too, good or bad. I miss her and the safety she made me feel.
Coleman and Carter are different but aren't we all? Do we not all have ticks and odd things about us? I need to let God be my all in all and not rely on knowledge or Lucy. I don't always give God everything. I am not perfect. I am different and the same as everyone. I am a good mom...I think?