Sunday, February 14, 2010
hello and goodbye to dreams
I was thinking after my last geneticist appointment how good everything with Coleman has gone. I remember how that first visit was and how scared I felt. I remember the word hypochondroplasia coming out of the doctors mouth and wondering if he sneezed or if I was lost? He had the worst colic known to man and a crooked back and he wouldn't drink his formula? Now all these words, like hypochondroplasia, dwarfism, bone scans, growth hormones and skeletal displasia make sense and are apart of my world. I have gone through so many emotions, from wondering if something was wrong, to knowing something was wrong. I have cried, smiled, informed, been informed, prayed, been OK, been not so OK. Now he is 3 years old and running, playing, talking, and living like a normal child. Sometimes we have to say goodbye to our dreams of what we thought life would be like and say hello to a new dream, a better dream. God has plans for Coleman and this is what it is. "For I know the plans I have for you declares the Lord ; Plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans for a future and a hope. " God has a plan for us as parents too. To learn and grow as Christians and to help our children do the same.